Don't let fear kick in.

So today I finished reading a book called 'Dreaming with God' by Bill Johnson. This book has been exactly what I needed to hear. (or read rather) But I realized that this is actually the first book I've  finished reading in a long time. That's kinda sad I know but I have a tendency of reading 4 books at the same time. I start one.. get interested in another.. and so on! :)

Anyways, here I am Day #2 of Support Raising for this Missions trip to Africa!! I talked to my friend Nicole today (who is also raising the funds to go on this trip) and she's already over $800!!! I am SO proud of her and it's just awesome to see the Lord actively moving in her life. I know it's stirring up her faith. And that in turn, stirs up my faith.

However, that all too familiar creeping shadow of fear starts to set in. And my mind starts swirling of questions like.. 'What if I am $500 short and can't go??' 'What happens if I have to return the money?!?' 'What if I get malaria and die over there??' Okay okay.. Anyways, I think this is going to be a real faith builder in my life.

Since living an intercessory missionary lifestyle for almost a year now.. I have story after story of God's faithfulness in always providing for my needs. Most of the time I have NO idea where my rent money is going to come from. Or gas money. But it always seems to come through. The Lord truly meets ALL my needs!

Now, I'm stepping out of the boat a little bit more!! And as of right now.. I have $100 towards this trip. So I am going to start rejoicing in that!! Rejoice that someone is choosing to sow into this trip and believes in what the Lord is going to do in it. I pray that this is the first fruits of much more to come!!!

A quote from 'Dreaming with God' by Bill Johnson

" The Spirit of the resurrected Christ living in me has disqualified me from the mundane and ordinary. I am qualified for the impossible, because I'm a believing believer. Faith qualifies me for the impossible."